About him again

Haiz...I always feel so guilty or bad to him whenever I've made fun of him or make him angry. And I don't know why I would keep bullying him loh...WHAT THE HELL!! I'm really very bad loh...KNN!! I HATE MYSELF LA!! And today after band he like very buey song me liao leh..Then I was like..(going to be sad le) Then don't know liao la...see-ing him walking alone..Haiz...Darren!! I'm really very sorry for what I did sia!! VERY SORRY!! T.T